You never know when you should stop doing what you’re doing, if it feels good. Some day, the things you do, provided they feel good, will grab you by the balls, and rip them right off. But then, not doing what feels good only delays that. So why fight it? We’re all the walking dead. Let’s indulge ourselves.

The good part about having this basic philosophy thoroughly carved into my brain, is that it allows me to function. To elaborate, it allows me to overcome everyday nuisances like other people. Had I been one step below where I am mentally today, I would have been in an insane asylum, with the rest of mediocrity. Because that is where mediocrity thrives, and only there. Society only has room for the superior, and the inferior. Grey is an abstract, that is not allowed to exist. And rightfully so, because when someone is bat shit insane, who the fuck wants to have to deal with that on top of the every day inferiority we already have to suffer on a nearly constant basis?

I can suffer said inferiority, for very simple reasons. I am great, and everyone else sucks. Now, this may seem contradictory to my goal of enduring other people, but think about it. I may have to crawl through the bleak horrid miasma of their existance, and their relentless recital of such, but the light at the end of the bog, or around the edges if you will, is that I don’t have to suffer being them.

At first, I would long for inferiority. Hell, even the lure of a padded cell seemed tempting. Some times, knowing a lot is not knowing a lot. It is knowing too much. But, as you allow some, though not all, of certain prominent historical philosophers, to bury itself and meld with your mindset, you rise above that. And I do mean rise above it. Make no mistake, it will make you a conceited, arrogant fuck head. But at least you are not them.

At least you are you.

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People who feel it’s stupid/useless/petty/fucked to demonstrate the suck factor of generalized demographics.

If you aren’t giddy with anticipation at the thought of a broad and lacerous exposé on why everyone you know blows, not only do you fall in their orally-pleasing, aurally-grating ranks, but you sir, ma’am, are a fucking hypocrite.

Let’s start small. You are an X-year old politically correct Internaut that occasionally wanders onto Jaywalking for a quick browse through the latest image gallery– looking for funny macros, sick realities, mayhaps even a most anticipated hint of underage foreign shit porn– who knows! As it goes though, you make little distinction between this site and whatever attention sink you will visit next; and that would be where you fail as a literate (by contemporary standards, at least) human. It really bothers me that someone could stumble around the place without seeing a clear message amidst the gratuitous vulgarity; to the point where I don’t deem people who miss it worthy of an explanantion– suffice to say if you oppose corrosive social dissection in favor of masterbatory entertainment, you suck.

But suppose your case is even richer: a upstanding self-righteous and moral reader. Not only do you revel in politically correct private viewing of illicit material, occidental ethics forbid you– and thus you deny everyone else the right– to make a generalized statement against your own brethen, equals as you are. Okay, did you recognize someone in that? Here’s it spelled for you: bullshit and denial.

All of you, even you, put yourselves above everyone else you see. The uglier, the poorer, the unluckier, the slower, the older, and all their complimentary opposites– you secretely despise them all. I know this because I know you, collectively; I can tell how vain you are– how proud you can be through humility and how you constantly manage to stand next to someone uglier than you. Find it in you, the hate, the loathing; those concepts are not alien inceptions into the collective psyche, they’re human traits we all share and no matter how virtuous you are, it’s in your eyes, painted upon your retinas and filtering reality. So above judging, beyond judgement. Briefly, people living in spite of yourselves, you suck.

Next time on Jerusalem Tributes, mom-sponsored rebels.

-Valkam

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Never the less, don’t worry you fuckers, I’m still alive. I’m just too marinated in alcohol to give a flying fuck.

Maybe later. Ciao.

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24

Dec

by Valkam

The Jerusalem Tributes.

The concept is cute and simple. Every other day I will pick a group of people and demonstrate why it is stupid. And I will be right.

Next time on Jerusalem Tributes: people who think the tributes are a stupid idea!

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Fiction.

The Diem Notion of Self

Either you can do this now or you can’t do anything anymore because we’re all fucking dead!
The sun was falling as we did, pitching our descent in orange light. Fire, the clouds set ablaze were climbimg above us as the ship nosedived into the court; our collective hysteria suddenly reacquainted with an ever stoic gravity– we saw the crewmen fall from the sky and disappear in their own consciousness, we saw our narcissic technology crumble under fate’s foot. Ruins for the future, the day is ruins.
Diem threaded off to the edge of disaster, in his walk, so light, so calm, the stroll of detachment. I caught his eyes once has he proceeded down the slope– the glacial orbs that weren’t really meant to look, only to see. Before long he was standing alone at the one place everyone else was, to their best of one’s fleeting abilities, trying to avoid. Impact point break. I asked Kaiser to hold me and sat on the deck, yards behind him, right behind him.
The Dead Echo was lifted a first time, and pointed at the approaching ground, at my castle, pointed straight ahead and then at nothing. A man of no mistakes, only half-successes; and the motivational power of impeding doom, straight under the setting sun– his silhouette, one that I knew better than most was beaten and broken, stood straight in the basking light; his shadow stretching all over the ship, over us.
There was instant when I could look at Diem Kaye, and it was then.
What he did was in front of him, leaving the best of us to guess, but we do know that he saved us. The abysmally catastrophic landing was accounted for; our lives, also. Past the shock, his orifices bled and his eyes turned over to the sound of his quaking breath and contagious distress; we held him close, our savior. His tears were lost in ours.
And beyond the miracles and beyond the humanity his image still hung above my head– some kind of newly acquired sacred icon, this man set against the sun staring not at not death, but failure, and still standing still and taking the chance to die so he would not fail. The man wasn’t usually arsed to explain his deeds; in no clearer instance did his deeds explain themselves.
Hurahns were dedicated to freedom, which implicitely states that they choose their way of life; that they allow themselves responsability for their own sake and their ideals. This source was closer to them, these chains they took the time to bind and contemplate before walking off to break them over and over again; their freedom was the curse and the responsability, their power. And in the troubled times of Hac Tao, no man held his binds any closer, no man felt as responsible, and perhaps no man was as powerful– no one more godly than Diem Kaye, walking to the Edge and finding in him the reasons for such sacrifice, in him the power to succeed, in him the power to embrace the prison of liberty.
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20

Dec

by Valkam

The end of this year, somewhat like the end of 2005, has been memorable. I’m out of material for this paragraph.
You may or may not know, depending on how confident-worthy I find your person, that this past year and much what I’ve put in it– if not all that I’ve put in it– has gone down the shitter. In the liquid, rocket-powered diarrhea kind of way, as far as speed factor goes. On the sensation end of things, it felt more like the turds you could swear are spiked with chili-covered angular warts. You know them. You walk funny and feel violated afterwards.
I don’t want to reiterate this story, repetition has already dulled its edge into a blunt boulder, one I try to push uphills. With my face. On the good news bulletin, however, I managed to meet with a man of spectacular value and wisdom, my senior grade French teacher. Much of the love I have for tongues comes from kissing, but the affection I bestow to non-litteral tasting organs has, for the larger part, blossomed under the warm veil of his viral, amorous use of words. He speaks amazingly well, sentences of substance and passion.
Despite my most recent affliction, the loss of my malleable voice in favor of a wheezing, rusty screech, The Tragic Tale of Two Thousand and Six (TTTTT6) was again recounted and, a first, the man had something to say. The details of his wisdom I will not divulgate, at least not in this little note, but its effects will be, I hope (fuck I hope) clear enough in the following days, weeks, months. I told him I had something to write and sing. He told me to write and sing it.
I cannot find the words to express how limpid his reasoning was. Several times I’ve been told to hang onto my hopes or another equivalent of “don’t give up” but nuancing their chorus, his advice is lacking the implication that I can’t do what I want right now. He read my stuff. He told me to write it and it will be good enough. That certainty stems out of an newfound assurance; the incision of a doubt that lingered ever since I valued the opinion of someone else so much as to doubt my own– it was Michelle, but y’all knew that. The kicker, though? I’m right.
I don’t have to roll it over and over and reinspect it and rephrase it and re-evaluate it and rebuilt it from the ground up and forget it and pick it up again.
Guys? I’m right. I know something I can demonstrate to be true. Something new. Of course I have absurd work ethics and I probably will not be arsed to phrase it coherently in the immediate future, but from this moment on the valves are open. I’m dropping the quality standards to rock bottom as long as I can put out a new piece every day. Unrelated stuff. Ramblings. Poems. Stories. Poems about stories. Vice-versa. Elogious vulgarities about the heart-shreddingly beautiful trombone player I saw on stage tonight (I’d fuck her until she forgot her name).
Right? Right.
-Valkam
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16

Dec

by jay

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7

Dec

by jay

I know, I know. A lot of you have bothered me incessantly on MySpace to ask me when I will update my site again, with pictures since none of you can fucking read apparently.

I will respond to one Myspace Message in particular because it amused me: To Åshild. Here I am, updating my MySpace. I’d reply to you about your inquiry concerning when I would do so, but since you set your MySpace to “Must be a friend to Message” and “Must know E-Mail or Birthday to be applicable as a friend” and basically have a MySpace policy similar to Hitlers fucking Germany, I am giving you your response here instead.

Remind me to kill you if I see you walking down the street.

Oh, and yeah, even though for the past 4 weeks I’ve been working 12 hour days, full weeks, today I just got paid $4000usd for it so I feel pretty good about myself, ergo I will make an update.

…sometime this weekend.

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